This is a very difficult thing to write about. This experience that I have had IS very personal and even talking about them at this time is a very hard thing for me to do. My family, friends, and people that I have met are more fascinated by my story at this time, much more fascinated with it than I am. The professional opinion is that I am in a state of shock, that the impact of my adventure is being lessened by my psychy. It is as if I was and am an observer, held apart from the person who had and is traveling this path.
This complete abridged version can be told very quickly, a get to the point, tell what happened, and be done with it tale! That's not what People want to hear, or what I have been told to do. I am suppose to tell my story and bring a message I've been charged with delivering. It is not the only message. Many are personal and only for that one individual, but one I've been charged with bringing back is for the world.
"EVERYTHING YOU DO, ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING GOES WITH YOU!"
What happened to me? Well, here is the reader's digest version:
I died. period! Then by a "miracle" I revived after an extended period of no vital signs- death so to say, clinically,legally! I spent the next months blancing between life and death in a coma. I woke, and spent time in several "therapies" learning to "cope" with my death, walk,eat,move, and just doing the simple things everyone takes for granted.
I am still recovering, still physically disabled, still finding the simple things in life challenging to do.
That is the short version. This leaves out what happened to me when I died, the day leading up to the event, and how I spent my time during death and in the coma. Coma, that word is strange and awkward, yet the condition of coma itself is awkward and strange.
My nurses, doctors, friends and family all cared for me, and I was aware of it, trapped inside myself, unable to respond to them, paralyzed. Awkward, strange, and rating 10+ on the frustration scale.
That is my story in a nut shell, but experience has shown it is not enough to satisfy people's curiosity. It is so matter of fact to me that it has been difficult to understand the need to know more about my death experience. I',m buried with questions about it. "What's it like being dead? Did you see the light at the end of the tunnel, did you talk to God? Who was there, what happened, and do you remember everything? Are you afraid of death? Did you want to stay or come back? What did your learn, what did you say? Questions, questions, questions!
Lots of questions you see, and this is the tip of the curiosity avalanche. So, persauded by so many people, I will do my very best to relate my adventure. I will not embellish, change, or delete anything that happened to me to the very best of my ability.
I have to stress, that when I've read the adventure, some parts sound "corny" to me. I find it hard to accept everything that happened as fact, although it is. So, I will do my best to relay my story no matter how it sounds.